Nurse Burnout Recovery: Healing Ourselves to Better Serve Patients

Shedding parts of us that no longer serve us.

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A couple months ago, I shared my experience with burnout and lessons learned from it. This experience propelled me into a healing journey. This healing journey wasn’t just about a newfound appreciation for “self-care.” Guided by several mentors, coaches, and healers, it incorporated modalities such as energy healing, spiritual healing, mindset work, inner child work, meditation, breathwork, and journaling. Burnout had initiated an intense deconstruction and deprogramming process that made it clear it was time to shed the pieces of me that were no longer serving me.

During this healing journey I asked myself:

  • Why do I do what I do?
  • Why do I feel that I’m not good enough/smart enough/skilled enough to take care of my patients?
  • Why do I feel like I can’t prioritize myself and my own needs so I can take better care of my patients?
  • Why do I feel like it’s not safe to speak up if I have a concern?
  • Why am I afraid to fail?

After being brutally honest with myself, I realized I had to go back to where the programming began.

Confronting our fears.

As […]

2023-10-02T09:38:34-04:00October 2nd, 2023|Nursing, nursing perspective, wellness|1 Comment

One Hospital and Community’s Rock Garden of Hope

In March 2020, Mount Sinai Queens, like many other hospitals, was overrun with patients with COVID-19. Despite layers of PPE, plus anxiety, exhaustion, and communication overload, the will to not only survive but thrive sustained the breath behind every mask. Heroes of all types were saving and soothing lives, and still are.

Outside the big front door of our hospital is a bustling ED ramp. To the left were two 18-wheel refrigeration trucks, the sight of which could take your breath away. To the far right were two 30-foot inflatable enclosed tents propped up to help the ED off-load abundant overcrowding inside. These were constant reminders that we were living through a once-in-100-year-pandemic.

An ER nurse’s creative response to a grim time.

The health care workers at the hospital weren’t the only ones subjected to these grim sights; so were our Astoria neighbors, who lived on the same block facing the ED ramp. We’ve always prided ourselves on the collaborative work we do for and with this community, including health fairs, screenings, and partnering with them on community boards. So one of us, an ED nurse named Fionnuala Quiqley (Nuala), decided to do something about it.

Nuala is a skilled and passionate ED nurse with more than 14 years of experience. She is […]

2022-12-08T10:19:25-05:00December 8th, 2022|COVID-19, Nursing|1 Comment

A Time to Heal: Taking a Break from Nursing After a Cancer Diagnosis

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Most nurses I know enjoy Nurses Week as an acknowledgment of the very important work we do every day. Nurses’ Week can also be an opportunity to think about our own needs, or to practice “self-care,” a term I find problematic because I worry it has become one of those ideas that nurses get blamed for the absence of, as in, a nurse is stressed on the job because he hasn’t done his “self-care.” However, regardless of how management discusses “self-care,” it’s an important idea: that nurses need breaks, moments to relax, have fun, and nourish our own humanity so that we come to work ready to humanely care for patients.

The problem with doing a hard job, like nursing, is that recovery is hard, too, and when the job itself seems to expect employees to be superhuman, finding the will to really care for ourselves can be difficult. I discovered how truly challenging that can be after being diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer in September 2017. At the time I was working as a per diem home hospice nurse and I knew instinctively that I could not care well for dying patients when I was worried […]

2022-05-09T09:20:58-04:00May 9th, 2022|Nursing|0 Comments

A Small Gesture of Kindness

Illustration by Janet Hamlin for AJN.

In our January Reflections column (free until March 1), “Just One More,” a nurse shares her memory of a family facing one of the most painful experiences imaginable—the death of a child.

In a situation like this, there is so little that can be done, and the usual gestures of expressing condolences or giving a pat on the hand feel inadequate and hollow.   

She writes:

“I knew that no words could lessen the unexpected heartbreak . . . But still, I wished there was something I could say, or do, that might make a small difference.”

Small gestures, lasting effects.

Most nurses can relate to such a situation. You may not be able to do anything to change a patient’s circumstances, and all you have left in your arsenal of care is a small gesture of kindness. […]

2022-02-11T09:39:23-05:00February 11th, 2022|Nursing, pediatrics, writing|0 Comments

The Power of Pictures in Therapeutic Healing

Sam was a 17-year-old who had been admitted following a major traumatic leg injury. The surgical teams were trying to save his leg.

A colleague asked me to ”pop in” on him, since he was having a hard time coping. Frankly, he was completely bummed out.

Sam and his mom were together in his room waiting to go to OR. I introduced myself as a nurse working with the pain management/spiritual care team. Conversation was stiff but polite. Sam made no eye contact with me at all.

Building relationships takes time.

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Following his procedure, I made a point of stopping by to visit almost every day. Mom had warmed up to me—Sam just a bit. It was an isolating time in the hospital. Visitors were not allowed, except for a single family member for pediatric patients, and the contacts with staff were often task focused and purposeful. One afternoon, I saw mom sitting in the hallway talking on her cell phone, crying. So I waited.

When she ended her call, I asked if she’d like some company. Our conversation found its way from the hospital to the kitchen, stopping along the way as we shared family and shopping tidbits. She laughed and we connected. I also learned a […]

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