A Nurse Practitioner’s Lesson in Grace
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It looked as though I had life figured out. I was working my dream job as a nurse practitioner in primary care. I had completed the treatments for thyroid cancer, finished my DNP degree, and was starting a postdoctoral fellowship. Life was great, and I was excited to build my career. I had no idea the challenges I was about to face.
An unexpected shift in personality.
I have always been a laid-back, quirky person. When I was not working, you could find me sewing and crafting. I am even-tempered and not easily angered. Then my usual calm demeanor began to change; I started getting annoyed and angry about things that normally wouldn’t have bothered me. My thoughts became a loop of negative commentary: “You are not good enough,” “You don’t belong,” “Nobody really likes you,” “Everything would be better without you.”
Slowly, I started feeling physically unwell. I was tired, and not a normal tired; no amount of rest would alleviate the fatigue. It became difficult to drag myself out of bed each morning. My body felt sore and stiff, and every muscle ached. I was constantly freezing, even in the summer heat. I had a nagging, throbbing headache, […]



