“The further away I get from direct patient contact, the less I enjoy being a nurse.”
Last week was Nurses Week, and on its Facebook page, the American Journal of Nursing posted the question, “What would you do if you weren’t a nurse?”
It was not surprising to me that many nurses commented something to the effect of, “I don’t know. I like being a nurse.” Others, though, posted a variety of career choices, often unrelated to nursing, many of them in creative fields.
I did not grow up wanting to be a nurse.
When I was three years old, I wanted to be a horse. Once I realized it was impossible, I settled on becoming a ballerina. However, the small community where I grew up did not have a dance studio or classes, so this aspiration also fell to the wayside.
In junior high school, I decided I would become a writer. I already knew I was an artist; I’d known that before I wanted to be a horse. I’ve always drawn, and still do, nearly daily. I began writing and keeping journals in elementary school.
A librarian’s intuition.
When I was 15, our school librarian suggested I become a nurse. She felt I had a natural aptitude for the profession. As an adult chaperone on school-sponsored tours of college campuses, she made sure certain colleges with nursing programs were part of our itinerary—pushing me forward from the group and outing me to nursing professors as a potential candidate.
A typical teenager, I would have nothing to do with it. I was going to be a writer, and begin as a journalist. To this goal, I started, coedited, and illustrated a high school literary “magazine,” painstakingly typing submissions onto mimeograph paper, and hand-turning the copies for publication.
The lasting importance of direct patient contact.
I’ve written before about how I eventually ended up in nursing school. I have been a nurse for over 30 years. Despite invitations to apply for nurse management positions, requiring that I complete my BSN, I went to art school instead. I have no regrets about this decision. Through a variety of nursing opportunities, over the years I have learned something very important about myself: The further away I get from direct patient contact, the less I enjoy being a nurse.
My school librarian recognized—before I did—that for me nursing is as much a vocation as being an artist and writer.
Having more than one vocation is just fine.
Despite living in a society that expects people to choose and brand themselves by a single talent, I remain an artist and writer, while working 40-plus hours a week as a nurse. Some of the attention I’ve achieved as an artist and writer is enhanced because I am also a nurse.
For me, the three vocations are inseparable. I experience their relationship as a juggling act. Some days, nursing requires all of my attention and energy, so art and writing become the two balls I toss into the air while finessing the third. But at other times, nursing only requires that I palm it back and forth—allowing me to focus on art making, and writing.
While I can imagine someday retiring from nursing, to make art and write full time, I suspect I will always be a nurse. It’s in my nature. I’m grateful I’ve never had to choose between my vocations.
I have to testify in legal cases as an expert in my field, and I always get asked, “When did you stop working as a nurse?” I reply, “I am working as a nurse today, counselor.”
“OK, when did you stop doing patient care?”
“I am doing patient care today. My work today is directly beneficial to Ms. Smith, and provides for patient care activities as specified in the nurse practice act.”
“Ohhhh-kaaay, when did you stop working in a hospitals?”
“I have worked in hospitals in many capacities as a nurse in positions that did not include direct bedside care but that benefited patients directly, such as case management and risk management.”
(some people don’t learn quickly, so…) “I left hospital bedside nursing for an advanced role in case management and life care planning. These are recognized nursing specialties. I could not do them if I were not a registered nurse with an active license and the critical thinking skills I acquired in a college nursing education.”
Some of us don’t do a lot of direct patient contact, but we still enjoy the heck out of being nurses. I am one.